Danger

“The human heart is the most dangerous thing in the world.” -Osho

The master is inside your own heart.
I did not know the danger when I began.
(And thank God for small favors or I would not be here!)
So, I’m sorry for telling you this here.
Perhaps you should stop reading, but here goes…
I simply committed to following my heart.
In every way.
In every moment.

What happens then?
The heart takes us back to our Self.
The heart takes us back to our truth.
Everything else falls away.
Everything leaves.
Eventually
nothing but the desire to experience
Truth
Love
Freedom
Persists.

Consistency fades
Each moment is new
You no longer act in the ways you used to
Your loved ones may not recognize you
They may call you selfish
Or crazy
Or worse
They may leave you
You may leave them

This is a dangerous moment
What will happen at this moment?
Will you let them go?
Or let your own heart be betrayed?

You may lose all you thought you held dear.
Your things. Your home. Your family.
The life you knew.
Your own heart will take you to Truth
Daily deaths occur
as whatever is not truth falls away
Your floor might be dirty.
Your hair might be unkempt.
You might eat dark chocolate M&Ms for breakfast.
(I just did.)
You might be incredibly lenient with your children
You might let them play too many violent video games
and just float by in school
You stop caring about your punctuation and capitalization
(I’m starting to in this writing.)
because you realize
None of it matters!
The only thing that matters
Is the call of the heart
If your dirty floor does not call your heart
it can f*ck off and be dirty.

Nothing is the same
Life can be sparkly and new and beautiful
But forever
Different.
The human heart is the most dangerous thing in the world.
But I will tell you this…
It’s all worth it.

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Our True Selves

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When we cut the crap and really commit to our true selves, we open to a whole new world. Early on or later, we realize we need to open our hearts. It can be so scary. What on earth could be in there? I’ll cut to the chase.

Everything.
Everything is in there.
Everything in the whole freakin’ world.

Yes, there is love. And this is what will always be there. It may be on top of everything. It may be below everything. It is everywhere.

Oh, but there’s so much else in there! The whole freakin’ world!!!! And all the world is asking is to be welcomed when it comes. (As we all are.) All the world is asking is to be taken as it is, without interpretation, judgment, fear. (As we all are.) Just to be taken as it is. Welcomed.

So, we welcome our fears. We welcome our guilt, our judgments, our petty jealousies, along with our love and tenderness and gentleness. And it feels pretty good. Sometimes stretchy, sometimes achy, sometimes a little tender and raw. But ALIVE. And yes, full of Love.

Then one day, a question sneaks in… “I loved that guilt and that jealousy…why is it still here?” I don’t know. And another “How LONG do I have to love all this stuff?” As long as it is here.

What?

As long as it is here. As long as it is now. Welcome, Beloved. Welcome what comes. It is all the Beloved. It is all God. It is all our heart and the heart of all. There aren’t any answers. There aren’t any results. There isn’t any ending. The welcoming is all. The All is Love. There is no waiting. You are already there.

Welcome, Beloved. And when we allow this within our own hearts, it naturally begins to seep out into everyone we meet and everything we do. We realize our oneness. Welcome, Beloved. How does the world look when that is our response to all we encounter?

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Nothing is Happening

Nothing

We all go through times when it feels like nothing is happening. Nothing is moving forward. Nothing is resolving. The ego part of us can feel very, very uncomfortable at these times. “But I’m not DOING anything. I’m not making PROGRESS.”

There is an inky darkness. We can’t see two feet in front of us. We might know who is right next to us, but we might now. And we’re not sure if they’re staying.

On some level, we all know this time is pregnant with possibilities. Nothing is decided. ANYTHING can happen. It’s a grand adventure. It’s the stuff REAL LIFE is made of. But that small part of us says, “Nothing is decided! ANYTHING can happen!” It can be exhilarating or terrifying, and often is just that… both.

The question is, what do you do with the both? What do you do with the darkness? The “stuckness” (We’re never really stuck.) It IS pregnant with possibilities, but not just for “when things move forward”.

Right NOW is the possibility if we can see it. Can we, right now, say, “Wow… this is inky darkness. It’s kinda cool.” Or “I freakin’ hate this, but I’m not going to run from it.”

Or simply just stop.

And allow it all to be ok, because it really is. We are always sitting in the lap of God. There is a richness to meeting ourselves in the void if we can take it. It might be the only place we truly meet ourselves.

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Divine Mother (Poem)

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Divine Mother
Mother
So much there
Doesn’t feel divine
I need to find the real Mother
The real source
Let go
Let go
Let go
Move deep into the Heart of Love
This is truth.

Not the façade we have felt
Not the burning wanting
The Heart of Love
The Heart of Love
The Heart of Love
It’s all there for us
Why do we get stuck
on concepts?

Why do we place so much need
on little humans?
Be this
Do this
Fulfill me

Take me into your heart, Divine Mother
I know I am there
Why do I not notice?
Help me notice.
Clear my blocks
Love me

I open to your love, Divine Mother.
Even though it’s hard
with that M word there
It still doesn’t feel Divine.
Take it.

Opening
Opening
Opening
Stillness
Allowing
Embracing

Let me lie in your arms
and believe in love.
I don’t know what stops me.
Take it.

Let me lie in your arms
and tell me I’ve done enough.
Tell me I can rest
You’ve got this one
Tell me I can rest
Tell me I am enough
Tell me I am all
I want to believe you

Opening
Opening
Opening
Pierce through my resistance
with your gentleness.
Stroke my brow
Touch my hair
Love me

 

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Morning Demons

I awaken

I awaken.

Sometimes before I even open my eyes,
they are here.

The morning demons.

I don’t understand why they come.
Didn’t I just come out of pure isness?
Why would demons greet me
on the other side?
Shouldn’t I be refreshed? I am not.

Well, let’s get down to it.
Who is here?
Pure existential panic?
Well, hello.

Who else?
Not enoughness?
A wink and a punch to you.

Who else?
Guilt?
Oh guilt… where are you?
Are you hiding again? C’mon… guilt…
I know you’re there.
My mother kindly told me
ALL about you.
Oh, there you are.
Hello, Guilt.
What? I haven’t done enough?
Ok. Thank you, Beloved.
I see.

Thank you.
I know you are going.
I think I might miss you most of all.

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