What do you most deeply long for?
I long to be true
to the longing of The One
within my own heart
in each now moment.
I long to be so porous
that the Divine Lover in All
shoots through me
in a brilliant ecstasy
or a quiet softness
or a delicious rage
or the happiness
of a bubbling brook.
I long to be free
in each moment
or perhaps… to realize it.
Because I AM.
I long to see more clearly
how the Beloved dotes on me
in every moment.
Not through one intimacy,
but through intimacy with the One
which can also come
through intimacy with one.
I long for Union.
Sweet delicious Union
that takes whatever form
the Divine chooses
in each moment.
A warm shower.
A nap.
A juicy watermelon.
A sweet, delicious caress.
A kiss.
A forest full of sun shining through trees
just for me.
Whatever is chosen for me
because it’s always so much grander
than what my mind would conceive.
I long to trust this Union,
to rest in it,
to allow
the beautiful spontaneity present
in the Heart of All
to use me
and use me
and use me.
I long to deepen deepen always all ways
my intimacy with This.
And laugh and sigh
while I experience the surprising
wonder of the world
unfold around and through me.
I am already This.
I am already what I most deeply long for.