Serena Portal
Going deeper
than ever before
into the pain
and the ecstasy.
The first cut
is the deepest,
but it is also
the most ignorant.
Now I know the
exquisite freedom
of breathing
my own air,
my own space.
I may never go back.
Now I know
the delicious truth
of unhindered flow.
No distractions
from diving fully
into the heart
of the divine.
Only this.
Only this.
Breathing silence,
wind from the open door
caresses my skin.
Only this.
Letting go of the internal pressure to be consistent is a beautiful thing.
What is completely pure
of the Heart,
True
and real
Cannot be trampled
by human frailty
and misalignment.
It grows and grows
Still
I will weep
over your pieces
scattered and confused,
lost
all over the universe.
I will weep
until your heart
cannot bear
to be lost.
I will pray
until your soul
cannot stay away
but settles gently
into your body,
sighing in relief.
I will sing
until you find me
in the night.
My tears,
the glue
that helps you
reassemble
you
