We are in a season of New Beginnings. In fact, we are in a whole AGE of New Beginnings. Many of us have been purging and cleaning up our old lives for months or years. We are each at our own unique spot in this journey, but we are all on the journey.
For me, I feel I am very close to being done with cleaning out the accumulated stuff of the old. In my life, this has manifested in numerous ways. First, I worked on myself. Then, people began to leave my experience. Then, I had to work on the emotional and spiritual upheaval that these leavings caused in me. After the mental and emotional work, there was some legal work. Next, came the actual physical work. Somehow, many of the people who left my life left their STUFF with me. I have been cleaning out the actual physical stuff that five different people have accumulated throughout the last 70 years.
This has been some of the hardest work I have ever done.
There is always some of that clearing to be done on a regular basis, if you want to keep your life and space healthy. But this past year has been an epic overhaul that has completely changed my life. I haven’t been able to control the process. I have only been able to surrender and ride the waves. Much help has shown up. Not the people who helped me create the mess. New people.
I always knew I needed to clean up this mess before I fully rebirthed myself into a new reality. It was overwhelming and daunting. I’ve had to take many breaks, but never quit. I have persevered, and it is almost done.
I’ve been looking forward to this day of stepping into the new. Being unshackled from the old and creating unfettered. And here it is. It took longer than I thought, but here it is. I’ve had thoughts and projects brewing that I kept shelving and waiting. And now it is getting the time to begin.
It’s exciting. And a little bit terrifying, this blank page before me.
I got stage fright when it came time to write the first piece for this new page with my new identity. “What will I say?” “There is nothing to say.” “There is everything to say.” “How should I say it?” “Will anyone care?” “What if I don’t like it in two weeks?” And on and on and on, the thoughts they wander.
And then I realized… Just begin it.
Well, I said a prayer and things clarified.
Just begin it.
It doesn’t need to be perfect, and yet it will be.
Just begin it.
One of the most beautiful things about the Internet age is that we are uniquely invited to give up on being perfect. We can create more and faster than ever. And it’s always changing. Nothing is set in stone. And things can seemingly last forever on the Internet. Terrifying and freeing.
What if, in two weeks, we don’t like what we created? That makes it hard to get started. There’s a good chance that could happen. It’s actually a good thing when that happens to any artist or maker or creator. It signals evolution. Each step is necessary to get where we are. Celebrate it. Celebrate every step of the process. Celebrate every little thing you no longer like. Let it be.
So, if you are on the cusp of your own New Beginning…
Just begin it.
It’s all ok. You got this. We’ve got it together.
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